12.4.09

And they say there is no fate, but there is: it's what you create. Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but it doesn't really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along. Something to make you feel connected, something to make you feel whole, something to make you feel loved. And the truth is I feel so angry and the truth is I feel so fucking sad, and the truth is I've felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long have been pretending I'm OK, just to get along, just for, I don't know why. Maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own, and their own is too overwhelming to allow them to listen to or care about mine. Well, fuck everybody. Amen.



[charlie kaufman, my own personal saviour]

2 comentários:

Nah Safo disse...

já falei que adorei.

mas eu sou blogueira fracassada que não recebe comentários, então gosto de deixar comentários já comentados por aí.

Pedro Obliziner disse...

af, em inglês.... amanhã eu leio